i never thought i could love someone so much to the point that thinking of not having them in my life would make me want to be physically ill. i never thought id ever cry so much over someone. i feel so lonely right now its kind of hard to care about doing a lot of things but at the same time im so inspired to just do something better with my life... go to school.. move out... because im not going to be working this same type of job when i near 30; ive made this a goal. i cant eat, i feel so lost and confused. i just think letting her go was the biggest mistake ive ever made. i know im not making any sense, i feel like i cant finish a thought completely.