why is this world so fucked?

as it being one of my days off this week, i went to lunch with my parents before my dad was supposed to pick up his new truck. on the way there i had heard something about a shooting on the radio but had thought it was something referring back to columbine. after lunch on the way home, they kept talking about this shooting so i had asked what happened and found out that there had been a shooting at virgina tech. they had said there was atleast 33 people dead and that he had barricaded the doors. im still not quite sure on all the details or what happened but it got me thinking... i started thinking about life in general, the shooters life, the lives of the people who have died. it just saddens and frustrates me all at the same time. out of anger im going to say right now that im glad he decided to end his own life, but why so many others? why take those innocent lives with you? what did they do to you? i just cant comprehend right now why all of this happened, maybe no one can. im so confused about the whole situation but i do know that watching maury earlier today is nothing compared to this. i watch maury from time to time and sometimes theres some pretty heart wrenching stories when you get wrapped up in the show but coming home and having this on the tv is pitiful, these people are pathetic; crying because your boyfriend cheated? who fucking cares. losing lives of loved ones in a fucking massacre... thats something to cry about. still thinking about it i just want to burst into tears im so enraged. i cant produce clear thoughts right now and ive probably repeated myself about 10 times so im going to quit writing. my regards to the families of all the lives lost today in that tragic event.

on a last note: my myspace quote is i love humanity but i hate people. as ive changed this within the past few days i can just feel the irony in it.